Okay so this blog is pretty much abandoned and I’m going to go start doing the necessary stuff for the other one.
If you want to unfollow this one, it’d be okay.
My reasons are here
And people who’re worried about this blog being deleted it’s not going to be. It’s going to remain as an archive
I’ll keep the askbox open for 24 hours more so if anyone wants(actually wants) to know my other blog url, you can ask me and I’ll answer privately.
It’s been quite a colourful experience here and trust me it’s not easy letting go. I was supposed to give it up hours ago but I didn’t. So this is the end, I guess.
I’m sorry I haven’t answered a lot of your questions over the course of this blog because I get way too many and I have to be in the mindset of writing about it. It’s not something I can force myself to and sometimes I don’t publish it because I want to answer it with all the content or I’m deliberating an interpretation. I’m sorry if you felt ignored or neglected because of that.
So this post is sort of my closure post.
I just about decided I would abandon this blog when I changed my blog title from “I tend to overanalyze” to “The girl who lit a match, but not for hope” as it marking sort of the beginning of my finally giving up any hope for this blog even before I announced it and basically running it to the ground. People might think I based that title off Elena(and the short story “The little match girl”) but if you ever read my personal posts you’d understand how that’s actually about a personal incident in my life that happened when I was 14, long before I ever started watching TVD. Elena sort of fits in a broad sense the idea. My blog description now is “What if someday you want to come back after all of this?” and “I won’t”.
So yeah, I won’t( At least not to post)
(I tried to find Damon’s gif closing the tomb “door” but it’s lost somewhere in my many tags and old posts because that was in season 2 and I didn’t tag it by episode but I really wanted to use it because I love the symbolism in that moment)
No, I’m not suicidal but I’ve been in a very low place for a while and basically it’s me trying to say that then I did it to end my life because I didn’t think I deserved to live but this time I’m doing it for a new start because I thought/think I deserved better. Metaphorically in action the same thing but this is me saying I’m not that girl back when I was 14 or the girl when I started findmysoulasigohome. This blog doesn’t feel like home anymore but staying true to the url findmysoulasigohome, I haven’t found my home yet so I wander on till I do.
ohmypreciousgirl said: i saw photos of your puppy, it’s so fucking cutie pie
He really is. But right now he’s sulking and he’s sitting in the weirdest position even though he seems comfortable
I’m wondering when exactly I should abandon this blog
I’ll give it hours maybe. 5 hours max.
I should have named my puppy Oddie I swear. Except he’s not always all that pumped
benwarlow said: do you want any text? or just plain?
Just keep it plain I guess
First of all, I’m not deleting this blog. I’m just not going to use it anymore and block the askbox but it’ll exist as an archive for all my meta along with other things. It’ll look the same except I just won’t post here anymore.
And second, my patience is wearing really thin considering you couldn’t even scroll down a little where I reblogged why I am the second time. But here you go:
Disclaimer: It’s inclined to offend you because my very existence offends people.
Do you ever wonder about how an author would describe you in a novel? Not only your appearance but the way you talk and laugh and hold yourself and all the expressions on your face?
"And then there’s this asshole"
benwarlow said: well i’m at work. so i can’t do it till i get home…. :( sorry…but if you can wait - totally 2nite…not long once i get home.
I wasn’t demanding, Joanna; I was inquiring. Take all the time you need. I can add the stuff later :)
benwarlow said: yeah of course you could any gifs…i don’t have that gif but i can make it for you. is this for a sidebar - what size is your SB, what coloring do you want and do you want any text on it? i’ll make it for you tonight. :)
How much time would it take you to make a sidebar gif of Elena dropping the matchstick and her journal burning and Damon shutting the door of the tomb on Katherine with the width of 200px and in height 140px?(There’s a lot of other imagery I’d like to put but that’d be too much
in terms of size and being dramatic)